Here we go again.
Yesterday morning was my second round of Botox injections for my Dystonia. My appointment wasn’t until 8 a.m. but I was anxious the whole night and got up just after 5 a.m.
The doctor I’m seeing is pretty amazing. He’s a little Chinese guy that’s quick with his words, but makes his point so clearly that I rarely ever have to ask questions other than, “Is this going to hurt?” To which he replies, “Maybe. Don’t look.”
The first round of Botox was injected into the nerves that control whether the feet turn in or out. My left foot was turning in and my right was turning out. This time, my doctor injected the Botox just above my right glute into the nerve that controls the movement of the whole leg since that’s where the turn-out begins.
I got a small dose this first time and if I notice any improvement or not, we’ll adjust the dosage from there. I’ll get more if nothing happens and less if it seems to paralyze the movement too much.
If it helps/hurts I should start to notice something within about 5 days. The strongest affects will be felt around the three week mark and then taper off after three months. That’s when I’ll probably get more/less.
The worst part is that it’s really painful. Not the injection itself. The first round hurt, but this second one was relatively painless.
It’s the, “Oh my gosh what if this doesn’t help me?” feeling that hurts the most. It’s the sadness of never crossing anymore finish lines as a strong, healthy runner.
I’m going to stay positive. But I’m keeping my hopes in check because I’ve only half-accepted the fact that this is a forever disease and I’ll just have to put my big girl pants on and deal with it.
On that note, I’ll report back in a week with or without good news.
AND on the topic of running, who else is having a full-on love affair with the new Runner’s World magazine layout? Ummmm update WIN of the century, am I right? I laid in bed last night wondering whether or not tweet them my praises.
The content is still great. The cover chick is a badass, and I’m still not buying Hoka shoes no matter how many ads push at me.